see how everything will end

i have not showered since thursday
today is saturday
i didn't go out this week and i haven't been out of bed in two days
well, only to eat and poop

i'm lazy to even think about doing things

i watched a documentary about the universe and thought existential thoughts
i feel troubled
by my insignificance -not that i want to be grand or anything-
or something

seems like there is only two things i feel positive feelings about
for every thirty-four things i feel negative or neutral feelings towards
i feel very fucked
i feel fucked a lot

i thought "i can't fucking do this anymore" but kept on living life anyways