For The Thrill Of It

If humanity knew how small we are compared to the universe we still would not appreciate it. Just how we see ourselves so small compared to the oceans, but still don't see it's important and greatness.

I Don't Know

What are YOU gonna be today?

Whatever I Want

Sometimes I think the only astronauts that they send to space are the ones that are able to not look out of the window when in space. Seeing their insignificant existence next to the immensity of the universe would drive them insane and directly to an imminent death.

Discussing fear and other human emotions.

Yes, I know I just posted something, but I just remembered I do have an interesting topic to talk about. Fear. I posted a bulletin on MySpace talking about something that's been happening to me lately. I'm developing a fear of light in the dark. For example, I'm completely comfortable in a pitch dark room, maybe even more comfortable than in the light. However, when light from the outside somehow leaks into the room, I find it quite mhh, not scary, that's such a vague word. But frightening? It creates some sense of uncertainty in me. Many times people are afraid of the dark, and they're looked upon as immature individuals. "I mean you're a grown man, how can you be afraid of the dark?" But fear is a natural human emotion. And like every other emotion in existence, fear has been very, very well marketed by the media. The public is scared of serial killers, monsters, mutants, the end of the world. But what about the raw fear, the raw emotion of simply being afraid. Before we knew we had to fear criminals, and the unknown. Before civilization was corrupted. I am certain this emotion existed then. In my point of view, fear is energy. Negative energy catalyzed by someone's own conscience or insecurities. I'm learning to open my mind to new alternatives. Lately I've experienced this energy I talk about. Not necessarily the negative one, but simply the feeling that it exists. And believe me, it all sounds very much like bullshit. But I don't mean to talk about a "god" per say, but the feeling that there is an unknown side, even dimension to every single person in this world. I still don't believe there's a bearded man watching our every move, but the feeling that there is more to every one of us than just our material, physical beings. I am NOT talking about a superior being. But a new layer to every one of us' characters. The part of us that is not human.

Is it better to say nothing, than to say something wrong?

What's up ya'll? The two of you that read this lol. Anyways, it's been a while. I went on some much needed break, more like a wild Mexican adventure. Experienced many mind altering situations, so I'm feeling rather inspired. Sounds like bullshit? Maybe so, but guess what? I never gave a shit. Anyways, I HAVE to stop saying anyways. According to research it's quite a habit among Americans though. And I was just about to type "anyways" again. See what I'm saying. Okay whatever, moving on. I had a great fucking wonderful time in Mexico, those great things everyone says about Mexico, parties everyday, booze, MJ, all true, and everyday. Can be dangerous, but fortunately I controlled myself, kinda. So where am I going with this you might ask, quite frankly, I don't know either but I've learned something. It's quite a recreational activity to simply write whatever comes to mind. Not necessarily a free write, but when you know you want to say something just don't know how to say it, it helps to just let your thoughts flow. Lately I've discovered some really good music, which is weird for our times. Gives me some hope. Well I'm going to sleep now, I've got a long day ahead of me tomorrow. Oh yes Friday, how I've missed you. Actually it's not the fact that it's Friday, but the fact that I'm actually gonna do something. Hoping to beat my record tomorrow, going for 5 sessions, wish me luck.

Here, take a listen.